You Are Beautiful --

If I had to write a novel right now at this age, I think I'd like to write about a character of any age who defines pure honesty, a real character who only know and speak the truth. A fearless character that is capable of shouting at any individual and give them a lecture that can change an individual's whole perspective of life and teach them that originality is definitely always better than a copy (one of the quotes stated on a poster in the school somewhere). It can be anyone who gets on the character's nerve by committing something unfaithful, whether it be in a relationship between lovers, or just any type of relationship, or just simply going against their morals and righteousness of a human being like-- lying, hustling, bullying, and the list can go on.

What I mean by that is, being a high school student, I am surrounded by many type of people whom attribute to many different types of characteristics and personalities. Through experiences being in a specific situations made me encounter countless numbers of phonies, liars, selfish and conceited individuals that range from age 5 to like adulthood. I know, like come on, by adulthood people should be mature enough to stop being so fake and grow up. Personally experiencing and seeing all these types of people just really gets on my nerve. But the thing is, even though most of the time I want to tell people off and just blow up on them... I just can't. If it isn't my business then I really shouldn't be minding their business. Oh ho, but if they are people I know, or people I know are involved, I would definitely go nuts. By nuts, I mean blow up on them and give them a 2 hour lecture why they should not be talking smack, or why their actions are wrong and whatnot. I know it might seem kind of odd, and old fashioned but honestly if I know that they're only doing that to 'look' cool infront of their 'friends' and peers, I wouldn't just leave it alone. Whenever I look back and think about those situations it always makes me wonder 'what if'. If I had the chance to write a novel, I want to describe all these scenarios that high school students may experience and have this strong character to speak my mind and say all the things I wanted to say to specific people, do all the things I wanted to do and just let it flow with all the possibilities. Because the novel would just be all of my imaginations and scenarios and I would be able to create whatever I want.

 In addition to what I was contemplating, even in public I would see all these people trying to lie and seem innocent (which they are not) and loyal at the same time. That my friends, is a big joke. I would call them two-faced ____.   I think the main reason why people, especially in high school change is because they want to become popular. But honestly, is it worth it? To completely become invisible to everyone and even to yourself? You're pretty much just faking yourself to be cool. What does popularity really symbolize? What does popularity really do to people, especially the innocent ones? Yeah, a lot of people know you and you know about a billion people have like trillion friends on facebook. Ok, first of all do you actually KNOW them or have met them, or are you just being (excuse my language) a social whore that just wants to be recognized by everyone and get a lot of attention. What do you GET from that? If you are a guy, you get girls, you get props for getting 'laid'. Girls, you get guys and get laid and people start calling you other inappropriate words, or they think you're extremely attractive but will still call you other inappropriate words. After you get out of high school how many of these people are you ACTUALLY going to know and TALK to? I really, truly, believe that popularity is not EVERYTHING you need in high school. You don't need to be popular to be happy. It's those one or two friends that really matter and care about you, the ones that'll stick with you through thick and thin (not to sound cheesy), and the ones that are real to you and to themselves. I really wonder if just one person can change people's minds and perspective on originality, and popularity. And that is one of my reasons why I would write a novel about this topic.

Ok, I think I got a little off topic, but every time I talk or even think about the people that transforms into a monster because they are afraid of revealing who they truly are, just gives me the urge to beat a punching bag or something. And I'm not even that violent, even though I am a black belt. So anyways, I'm basically trying to say that I want to write about some of the real stuff that students in high school can experience and have that one character that changes it all. Yep, all. Anything and everything. Completely. I know, it's cliche and I'm sure other authors have wrote about this, but honestly I think if there was a book like that, about a character that just fixes everyone up and to transform all those phonies and liars back to who they truly are and how they really should be... It would be a beautiful book. And I would call it 'You Are Beautiful'. Because really, everyone is beautiful in their own way. Not everyone has perfect hair, perfect nose, and perfect whatever. The imperfections can really enhance your beauty. Who's to tell you're imperfect or perfect anyway? What do they know. I think being brave, and accepting who you are as a person, accepting your imperfections are qualities that make a beautiful person.

Literature...

I believe that there is no right, nor wrong, way to write and to express one's mind. Every individual should potentially have the 'freedom' to write about what he or she desires, about just anything that they desire to express. I don't think it's right for people to judge, or criticize harshly just because they have majored in English or creative writing or whatnot, since it is not up to anyone else to tell you that an individual's writing is wrong, unsophisticated, and unappealing. So what if you can write all formal, punctual and all that? Do they sound free, are they expressing what they really want to say? Or are they just following all the rules so it looks formal and correct? Yeah, sure, you get props for going to university or college for learning how everyone should write. But really? Can you really be taught on how to 'be yourself' and say what you really want to say? Whoever bans these books are basically saying, 'we don't like how you write, so we're not going to show any other people your writing, so please go to school and learn how to write'. Foul language, sexual content, drugs and violence are probably the main reasons why books get banned. Many of these books are about real things that people experience, or what an individual really believe in or take interest in. You can't tell them to not write about something they feel strongly passionate for. Even though foul language are offensive, but they do emphasize alot on what they're trying to say so it should be allowed especially for the English department. It's totally different from when you use foul language in a conversation with a friend and using it in a proper content when you're writing. People and writers, should not be 'limited', especially when it comes to writing.

To feel alive...

An individual can feel love, feel pain, feel many things. Breathing in that fresh scent of air out in the morning, looking up in the sky... makes me feel so alive. In my opinion, being alive is to feel the people around yourself, to feel your heart beating, to feel real to yourself and the ones around you. Vonnegut's quote: 'How nice-- to feel nothing, and still get full credit for being alive', even at first glance, it definitely gave an impression that it was Vonnegut's piece of writing (well, to me at least).  His creative and blended style of sarcastic, humorous, and really casual tone really grasps my attention because it's so unique. It's quite different, and I love it. He can be very straight forward, but really descriptive at the same time. But anyways, back to the quote. Reading that quote right off the sheet of paper gave me two impressions: either a heartless individual, who does not feel anything, getting a full credit for being alive, or someone who actually passed away and cannot feel anything anymore getting a full credit for being alive. Either way, it is impressionable that the quote is very sarcastic because obviously, it is not 'nice' for someone to feel nothing, and get a full credit for being alive. It can definitely seem rude depending on how you interpretate it. Seeing as it is though, it's not such a pleasing quote. He makes it seem like that person should not be credited for being alive which can indicate that the individual is useless since the individual does not feel. Kind of harsh, don't you think? Even though every individual should definitely be happy, and really live each moment to their fullest, but still I don't think that it is right for someone to judge another if they should be credited for being alive or not. The more I read SH5, the abruptness of his writing becomes kind of... casual in a way I suppose? And I've adapted to his style of writing. His writing is really addictive in a way, because you constantly discover something new about his writing and it's amusing.